Is your worth determined by your size or the number on the scale?
So much of what we learn growing up is our worth is dependent on something:
- Being a certain size
- Having a specific body type
- The number on the scale
- Making a certain amount of money or a certain career type…
…essentially we learn that we aren’t worthy until (fill in the blank).
If you find yourself being influenced by your size or the scale, then listen on in here!
I wish I had found you a long time ago. I am 66 years old and I have fought the feelings of not being good enough for almost 50 years. I actually can remember the first time I felt inferior. A boy told me that I was “okay” but my cousin was ‘beautiful’. Not long after that i was dating a boy who called me fatso. (I weighed 102 lbs.) Two weeks before senior prom he dropped me for an extremely thin girl. That is when the extreme dieting and exercising began. I dropped to 82 pounds and lived on 1 hard boiled egg a day. I still didn’t feel thin enough. I ended up in the hospital being diagnosed as malnutritioned. That didn’t stop me, I did sit-ups in the bed and hid food in the trash can. Eventually I married and had kids. I had enough sense to eat decently while pregnant. I ended up weighing 130 lbs and really hating myself. Although I still battle (not as bad since I found you) I am doing better. I have grandkids who write me notes calling me beautiful. Through their eyes I am enough. I am working hard to believe that God has a much bigger plan in my remaining years for me than focusing on the scale. Please keep up your work. You are a life giver.
Hi Deb. I like to think that it is never too late. Some people spend their entire lives in this battle and never know another way. You’ve seen the light and you are here, doing the work. Feeling “enough” truly is an inside job. Society has us believe otherwise, but I’m determined to show women otherwise 🙂 Thanks for being here and sharing your story!